I’ve owned an ice axe for 7 years. Yeah, I thought I was pretty cool just having the axe in my closet, giving the illusion of being a real adventurer or under my bed to hack up an intruder if the occasion ever arose. I had taken a 1 day course and knew in theory how to use it. That was good enough for me.
Rumor had it, send the crampons and axe to Chama. So we did. For some reason I thought this must be a mistake. The option for the Crede route (lower) and the San Juan route (higher) didn’t happen until after Pagosa Springs, 65 miles away.
Halfway through crossing one snow shoot hundreds of feet up the side of the mountain I look down at Sweep, a tiny speck below. She had decided to take the low route. I say to myself, self, Have you lost you mind. I look down at the ice axe in my hand and the crampons on my feet, thinking are these really my feet, wishing to hell they were someone else’s and I was really safely at home sitting on my sofa drinking wine and eating Goldfish. Popsicle was ahead of me so I just kept my head down and followed her footsteps. This was the longest crossing yet and once you get out there theres no turning back.
On most of the snow crossings we could see the run out. If we fell we at least knew where we were heading. Down. Sometimes way down. Sometimes way down into a river, lake, boulders, trees, ect. A few times we came to snow shoots and the snow dropped off into nothing. We couldn’t see over the edge. At times like these I would just keep saying Don’t freak, Don’t freak (my mantra for the next 30 miles) Sweep would yell back How ya doing Max? I would yell one verbal Good! then back to my silent mantra. I would also think about in cartoons where the Road Runner goes over the cliff, apparently to his death, then you look over and hes standing safely on a ledge three feet down.
So after 5 days in a paradise that turned to hell around every other corner, getting hailed on, getting snowed on, seeing a mountain lion way in the distance, seeing lots of elk, sloshing through marshy fields, glacading down slopes, seeing amazing views, looking back at passes we had just came down and hardly believing it was possible, one thing is for sure….. we’re taking the Crede route.
P.S. I’m never buying a wetsuit to hang in my closet.


